Saturday, December 11, 2010

December 11th, 2010

I've recently recognized the power of prayer in a very strong way. So I've decided to start to keep a blog about things I'm doing well at, things I'm struggling with, and future aims for myself. And maybe someone reading this will pray for me. :)

Things at which I'm doing well:
I'm doing well at recognizing the difference between ministering and 'doing ministry.'
I'm the peacemaker in my family and have been the "leader" while we go through this rough time.
I genuinely love to serve.


Things I'm struggling with:
Try as I might, I am task-oriented, not relationship-oriented, and it's hard for me to put building relationships before getting stuff done. Which is why I know a lot of people, but don't necessarily know a lot about them. Because of this, I feel hypocritical.
I get frustrated easily when things don't go my way, usually with Jordan.
I don't put family as a high priority in my life. (Again, back to the task-oriented thing)
I care way too much about how people perceive me and work really hard at having a good image.
I struggle with the awkward relationship with my Dad.


Future aims:
Someone once spoke over me that I'll be the "next Mother Theresa."
I badly want to fulfill that, but I don't know if I'll ever get there. She was totally relationship-oriented. :( I'm afraid to dream that big.

I want to learn to a be less selfish.

2 comments:

Luke Stoltzfoos said...

I love you Izetta! This is very cool. Feels like you missed a thousand things you're doing well at.

1. You're a provider. (has to do with serving, but a slight difference, you use more than your time and effort to serve people. You use your resources.)

2. You're reliable.
3. You're creative, in just about everything.
4. You're one of my favorites. =]

jordan said...

awhh.. you started blogging again. awesome. :) i love watching you grow and helping in any way i can.