Bad things first.
Not being respectable. That cuts me deep.
Not being grown up enough. That's probably worse.
I try not to think about those.

Good things:
I somehow have this confidence, that everything will work out for the better. Somehow Jesus will use this to benefit us, his kingdom, or both. We will figure it out; when there's a will, there's a way. I think it being this much more difficult, makes me want to make it work so, so much more. I want to show them all that I am mature enough, and responsible enough, and grown up enough. Love never, ever fails. The true test of love is time. Willing to wait? The important thing now is that we prove ourselves worthy. No matter what the cost, no matter what our desires are; no matter how strong they are. I want to be proved worthy. That is my motivation. He is my motivation.